I have been feeling lonely.. ever since my friends shifted out..ever since semester started.. and ever since Mr.Chang has decided to implement one of his dream... It was terrible.. things were in a big mess.. i could not find a common topics when talking to my friends and group mates.. most of the time they will be talking on their final year projects.. meeting their professors.. readings bla bla.. which i could not understand at all =( yea.. because i am not doing any FYP.. to be exact.. i'm not qualified in doing final year project.. was it me being too sensitive or what.. i can sense a lot of discriminations towards 4th year students who are not doing FYP in my pharmacy department.. a lot of attentions were pain and focused on those doing fyp.. a lot of things are meant for them.. and worst is.. they are automically a member of some america association of pharmacy scientist.. while us.. those not doing fyp.. we are not a member.. but can apply if you want to.. haha how scarstic and realistic.. and if you are not doing fyp, u can never get to achieve second upper class anymore... adding up all these.. it's tough to convince myself.. that these are not discriminations .. owh well.. it is just a freaking 0.03... yes.. you can say that i am bitter.. I AM.. it's just freaking 0.03.... what a big or small difference can it make? i am being discriminated because of the freaking 0.03.. okies.. enough of ranting and bitching
Mr.Chang has been extremely busy recently.. his attention isn't on me even though when we are together.. he was not paying attention to what i have said.. he was not paying attention to my feeling.. and to the loneliness that i felt. This is sooo different... i used to have his 100% attention.. =( things changed ever since he decided to go on with the business.. thanks to the long dinner session that we had just now.. he finally understands my feeling.. and i finally accepted thet fact that he might not be able to pay 100% attention on me.. and we have come to certain level of consensus and commitment.. =) Let's work towards our dream.. and i can't wait the day your dream come true.. the grand opening.. and followed by our dream.. *keep fingers crossed*
and ya... back to my friends part.. thank you to golden flower gang... for trying hard to keep in touch with me and chatting with me over msn.. haha though it is kinda funny that you girls have to talk to each other through msn though you are staying together lolz
and my parents.. for constantly trusting me and encouraging me =) Gracias to all of them.. they are my sunshine who keeps me moving on
ya.. accepted the fact that i am not qualified for fyp.. accepted the fact that mr.chang will be extrmely busy.. accpeted the fact that things are gonna be tough.. i know i will and i can outbeat all these =)
You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
Because of youI forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of youI'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other
I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the celing
Like a lady to her good manners
I'm tied up to this feeling
Underneath your clothes
there's an endless story
that's the man i chose
that's my territory
and all the things i deserve
for being such a good girl honey
*Happily swing away.. and back to study*
