Sleep paralysis, i have been traumatized by this condition since i was 12 years old.ya, 12 years of time.. now i am 24 years old, the this condition is getting severe at frequency of once-twice a week.. the vivid and frightening dream.. the humming sound and sometimes the voice of people talking to me.. seeing people walking around my bed.. IT IS THAT SCARY.. i have not been sleeping well and i feel super duper lethargic and scared after the dream/reality
The feeling is just bad.. i just had another episode this evening when i was taking my nap.. mr.chang was doing this work in my room, and he happened to witness the whole process.. from what he described.. it was scary.. my whole body was totally paralyzed and stiff, head trying to shake around.. twitching eyelids.. i was struggling, trying to open my eyes, and the deep screaming sound from my throat.. i was totally alert during the whole process.. the feeling that something is pressing against your chest, someone is pulling you down to a deep dark hole.. i tried to run away from all these.. but i could not.. to the extent that mr. chang has to slap me (very light slap haha) on my cheek then only i managed to wake up from the paralysis.. it's 2am now.. i dare not to sleep.. been having this too frequent.. every night before goes to sleep, i wonder if i will get it again tonight..
i am scared.. i am horrified by all these and there were a few times where i could not breathe at all... trying very hard to grasp for breath and wake up from the paralysis condition.. i think i need to talk to someone... i don't want to hold it back anymore.. hence i am sitting here writing down my feeling and thoughts..
enough is enough, sleep paralysis, i am gonna KICK YOUR ASS!!!
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